savedbychristalone:

I’ve totally betrayed my future husband with my past relationships and I’ve dishonored God. I know that I’m forgiven and that Jesus loves me.. But the fact that I have to tell my future husband EVERYTHING I’ve done and the things I didn’t save for him terrifies me. I know that I don’t HAVE to but honestly I want to tell him. Relationships are all about trust and I don’t want to withhold anything from him. I want him to know how sorry I am. It just scares me. All of this stuff still makes me disgusted at myself. I feel so sick when I think about what I’ve done. What’s worse is feeling horrible for the things I’ve put people through. I guess I honestly just need to forgive myself. It’s going to be hard. And I’m going to need God’s help to do this. I just don’t really like myself right now which is not good. God please help me get through this.